still fighting it

i had one of those moments last night where the right number of serendipitous events happened, the planets aligned, and life just kind of went *click*. as a result, i know basically have some idea of what i’ll be doing the next few years.

first, a little back story.

when i graduated and took my current job at badbrain, i really had no idea what the hell i was doing. socially, intellectually, and spiritually, i was just really burned out. so i found the closest hole, jumped in, and kinda stayed there. now that i’ve had some time to think about it, it really wasn’t all that bad of an idea. i got some time to recover from four years of stress-inflicted damage, my boss got a somewhat-knowledgeable employee to help him grow a small business, and my landlord got another person to give him a monthly rent check. it worked out well for everyone, really.

well, last night, while i was laying awake in bed thinking, i realized that for the first time in a long time, i was thriving. i was working on several intellectually challenging projects at work, i had a decent relationship with my roommates, i was doing things that i wanted to do, and i while i wasn’t lighting cigars with $100 bills, i wasn’t destitute and scraping for pennies, either. the last time life seemed this good, i was a junior in college. the last time before that was high school.

and while i was thinking about that, i realized where my future was going and “the plan” just kind of clicked into place. ta-da.

so, here’s the plan:

right now, i’m rebuilding myself. i’m reading a lot of stuff simply for pleasure and entertainment, i’m working at getting involved with local affairs and events, and i’m trying to foster some new friendships. the plan for the next year and a half is to keep working at that. in addition to that, i’ll work to get myself back into some semblance of physical fitness, develop some healthy and responsible habits (such as balancing my checkbook and living closer to a budget), and get a better idea about how the real world works. in the grand scheme of the plan, that seems like it will take about a year and a half to accomplish, starting roughly now.

once i’m ready (or feel sufficiently confident that i can carry on elsewhere), i’ll apply for graduate school in computer science (probably in a network-related field), leave northfield, and make something of my life. depending on what kind of financial aid or family help i get, i’ll take some sort of tech job and do some sort of full-time/part-time arrangement. i’ll also jump into more of a professional musical ensemble again, because i’ll probably be in an urban area where something like that is feasible.

that should do until the next serendipitous click. now that i’ve turned on comments, you’re free to tell me what you think.

carry on.

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Grant

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